(not) Coming Out

We've hit week 13 (aka the first week of the 2nd trimester). wooo!! But we're still hiding safely in the closet. I'm kinda shy about the whole thing. I'm just not sure how to tell people. And part of me doesn't want the extra attention. Hard to believe, I know, but true. Slowly but surely I've been telling some of the folks at work. Quietly. One at a time. And, of course, making them promise to keep the secret safe. My knitter pals don't know yet and after last week's sobriety at the monthly Drunken Knitters Night, I have a feeling that they're starting to get suspicious. We're still waiting to hear back regarding the results from the nuchal translucency tests. And even though deep down inside I know that all is good and progressing accordingly, I'll still blame the lack of information for keeping the babe in the bag. And I also know that any day now I'll have to just bite the bullet and throw on this sweet little number...

Testing, testing, 1...2...3...

12 weeks and a day...

Bubba

What an amazing sight! It moved. It did a little dance and then it seemed to settle in for a nap. It was probably full from the delicious EggMcJay breakfast we had brought to us in bed this morning and it just wanted to sleep it off. We went in for the Nuchal Translucency screening and according to our techie, everything looks "normal". Fetal extremities - good; fetal movement; good; nuchal translucency measure: 1.6mm - good. After the Dancing Fetal Show I was sent for some blood letting. Only one vial! Thank the good Lord! In a weeks time, we'll have the results, which we're sure will be "low risk". We've never made it this far before and we have every intention of making it all the way to the finish line! A low risk result will keep us away from the dreaded Amnio. Not that I fear needles all that much, it's the risk of miscarriage that has us completely freaked out.

All nerves and freakyness aside, we are ecstatic! This is definitely one of the happiest days that Jay and I have shared so far in this journey that is Our Sweet Life Together. What I'm loving about this pregnancy, besides the fact that I'm carrying our baby, is that Jay and I are getting closer and closer every day. How much more close can ya get!? He is just such an awesome person. Who else can make me laugh through nausea and senseless tears? or bring me soda water in the middle of the night? or have the patience to wait by the fitting room while I try on yet another maternity top even though it's just not in the budget? Who else can bring home the bacon, fry it up in a pan and never never never let me forget he's my man! I *heart* Jay!!!

Pre-Maternity Leave

I was thinkin' what a wonderful world this would be if once you reached week 6 you were sent home to relax and deal with the barfiness and the dizzyness and the shear exhaustion. Then you could return to work during your 2nd trimester, stay until 2 weeks before your due date and then go off on maternity leave for a year. With full benefits and pay, of course! A gal can dream, can't she?

I've been feeling a little better lately. Meaning the nauseous moments are farther apart. Woo! But the tiredness seems to be hanging on. I'm ok though. I'm looking forward to the day when I can say (out loud), "I'm really not this fat, I'm pregnant!" I realize that I should not be gaining all that much during the first trimester, but when the only thing you can stomach is pasta marinated in butter, french fries, ice cream and popsicles, the calories are bound to catch up to ya!

My wardrobe is shrinking. I just want to put everything in a box and shop shop shop. I had to give in and get a pair of those maternity jeans and they ain't all that bad. They kinda feel like they're gonna fall right off, but I guess that I just need to grow into them a little more. Week 11 may be a bit early for the maternity wardrobe but I just couldn't help myself. And why buy regular clothes when you're just gonna grow out of them in a few months. Any excuse to shop! I've been lucky though, Old Navy and The Bay have some awesome deals. Good for the ol' budget!

Jay and I are counting down the minutes to Monday's 12 week ultrasound. If all goes well (and it will) we can celebrate with a new t-shirt that announces "baby on board" or something just as cheezy. Spreading the word across my chest!

Drinking for Two

I met Dee & Deb for dinner last night (of course, I had to run home for a nap before going, but i made it!). Traditionally, Dee and I take turns bringing our own bottle of vino and pay for corkage. We're finicky that way. Well this time, Dee didn't have time to drop by the liquor store and I feigned forgetful. When I got to the restaurant Dee started to give me the skinny on the wine situation. I didn't have the heart to let her go on so I told her that I would not be drinking any this evening. She knew instantly - you're preggers!! Am I that transparent? Am I that notorious for getting my drink on? Or was I just such a lush in my pre-preggers days that as soon as I decline a drink everyone knows? Even Jay joked as I left to go out, "Don't drink too much tonight". Dang! And today I woke up feeling just as I always do after a night out with them gals, nauseous, exhausted and looking forward to my lunch time nap in the park.

Heartbeat

11 weeks and a day.
I got the most wonderful surprise today.
I had a doctor's appointment this morning. I thought it was just gonna be the regular lady check up stuff, but to my amazement the Doc pulled out this thingy machine (a Doppler) and said, "it's still a bit early, but lets see if we can hear the heartbeat." She made me promise that I wouldn't freak out if she didn't find anything. At 7 weeks we got to see the heartbeat flicker during the ultrasound, but this time I got hear it. It was awesome! The only sad part was that Jay wasn't there to share the moment. With it being a regular checkup I didn't anticipate anything baby related, so there was no point in him missing a morning of work. We're up for our next ultrasound on Monday and he'll be there for that (and probably for all other appointments from now on!). Can't freakin wait!
When I got to work I ran into Bonnie in the hallway. This was the perfect opportunity to share the news. I was beaming from the heartbeat, it just seemed like the perfect time. She musta hugged me a billion times!

Not feeling social

I miss my friends. The way that I'm feeling these days makes it very very hard to socialize. I don't have any energy and I feel plain old lousey. Smells that I used to love before make me wanna puke. No more popcorn, coffee, butter chicken, fish, salad...oh the list goes on. when people start heating their lunches at work I have to leave the office and lie on a bench in the park like some little hobo.

I miss knitting. Before the all-the-time-sickness hit, I'd be knitting everywhere all of the time, but lately I have no desire. It almost makes me dizzy. Very very sad. I hope this passes soon! My gals at the weekly stitch n bitch are gonna start to wonder if I've abandoned them forever.

I'm sure that everyone will understand once the news comes out. I'm looking forward to sharing it with the world!!!

Happy Anniversary

We celebrated our third anniversary this week. Jay's parents treated us to a wonderful stay at the Radisson Hotel in Kingston for the long weekend and lent us their car to boot! We waded in the pool and took a walk through the outdoor market. We had a delicious dinner and ordered a movie to our room. And just plain relaxed.
Monday we headed to Oshawa to return the car and spend some time with the folks. Tuesday we lazed around the apartment and convinced each other not to do any laundry. Wednesday my ma and pa came downtown and took us for a yummy lunch at the pub across the street and then Jay accompanied me to my foot doctor appointment (I need orthotics!!) followed by voting and then a grand meal at Il Fornello.

Jay is the greatest partner in the whole wide world. And he's going to make one heckuvan awesome dad.