Drinking for Two

I met Dee & Deb for dinner last night (of course, I had to run home for a nap before going, but i made it!). Traditionally, Dee and I take turns bringing our own bottle of vino and pay for corkage. We're finicky that way. Well this time, Dee didn't have time to drop by the liquor store and I feigned forgetful. When I got to the restaurant Dee started to give me the skinny on the wine situation. I didn't have the heart to let her go on so I told her that I would not be drinking any this evening. She knew instantly - you're preggers!! Am I that transparent? Am I that notorious for getting my drink on? Or was I just such a lush in my pre-preggers days that as soon as I decline a drink everyone knows? Even Jay joked as I left to go out, "Don't drink too much tonight". Dang! And today I woke up feeling just as I always do after a night out with them gals, nauseous, exhausted and looking forward to my lunch time nap in the park.

Heartbeat

11 weeks and a day.
I got the most wonderful surprise today.
I had a doctor's appointment this morning. I thought it was just gonna be the regular lady check up stuff, but to my amazement the Doc pulled out this thingy machine (a Doppler) and said, "it's still a bit early, but lets see if we can hear the heartbeat." She made me promise that I wouldn't freak out if she didn't find anything. At 7 weeks we got to see the heartbeat flicker during the ultrasound, but this time I got hear it. It was awesome! The only sad part was that Jay wasn't there to share the moment. With it being a regular checkup I didn't anticipate anything baby related, so there was no point in him missing a morning of work. We're up for our next ultrasound on Monday and he'll be there for that (and probably for all other appointments from now on!). Can't freakin wait!
When I got to work I ran into Bonnie in the hallway. This was the perfect opportunity to share the news. I was beaming from the heartbeat, it just seemed like the perfect time. She musta hugged me a billion times!

Not feeling social

I miss my friends. The way that I'm feeling these days makes it very very hard to socialize. I don't have any energy and I feel plain old lousey. Smells that I used to love before make me wanna puke. No more popcorn, coffee, butter chicken, fish, salad...oh the list goes on. when people start heating their lunches at work I have to leave the office and lie on a bench in the park like some little hobo.

I miss knitting. Before the all-the-time-sickness hit, I'd be knitting everywhere all of the time, but lately I have no desire. It almost makes me dizzy. Very very sad. I hope this passes soon! My gals at the weekly stitch n bitch are gonna start to wonder if I've abandoned them forever.

I'm sure that everyone will understand once the news comes out. I'm looking forward to sharing it with the world!!!

Happy Anniversary

We celebrated our third anniversary this week. Jay's parents treated us to a wonderful stay at the Radisson Hotel in Kingston for the long weekend and lent us their car to boot! We waded in the pool and took a walk through the outdoor market. We had a delicious dinner and ordered a movie to our room. And just plain relaxed.
Monday we headed to Oshawa to return the car and spend some time with the folks. Tuesday we lazed around the apartment and convinced each other not to do any laundry. Wednesday my ma and pa came downtown and took us for a yummy lunch at the pub across the street and then Jay accompanied me to my foot doctor appointment (I need orthotics!!) followed by voting and then a grand meal at Il Fornello.

Jay is the greatest partner in the whole wide world. And he's going to make one heckuvan awesome dad.

Telling the 'rents

We headed out to Oshawa to stay at Jay's parents' place before heading out to Deb & Tony's wedding in Kingston. We brought the ultrasound pic to show them. After Dad had opened his belated b-day gifts, Jay told them that we had recently taken an awesome photo and that we wanted to share it with them. They were blown away! Happy tears and warm hugs.

week 7 - the peanut

We got up bright and early to make it to the ultrasound appointment and it was well worth it! nausea and all. At first she checked me abdominally and the screen was blank. well not blank exactly, but the sac looked empty. I was worried. What's going on!? and then the big wand came out and the transvaginal began. it's so frustrating not knowing what you're looking at or what they're looking for. little did i know that they were checking out my ovaries and uterus and making sure all was good. once they got what they needed they let us finally see it. and there "it" was, in all its glory...


Inside the black there is a peanut and inside that peanut there is a white dot. that white dot flickered. that white dot is a heartbeat. we were overwhelmed. as soon as the technicians left i just started to ball. even jay was tearing up. having had two miscarriages, we never had the chance to see a heartbeat. this was truly a miracle. we are truly blessed.

then off to see docta shep with the results. "all is good", she told us. "come back at week 11 and we'll do a full physical"and she sent me off to pee in a cup and get vials and vials of blood sucked out of my arm.

what an awesome day!